I like Day 3 of my raw food detox.
I feel awesome!!! Like Superhuman awesome.
My mind is so clear today, my spirit feels elevated and really tapped in, my energy is through the roof and I feel like I'm going to orgasm all day. I feel that good.
The client session I had today was so deeply powerful and moving that the energy I passed to her had her in a joyful daze of deep compassion and radical inspiration. It was amazing to feel so super charged and joyful!
If this is where things are going, I'm toooootally down with that.
I didn't know that Day 1 of my raw food detox was going to be Day 1. I was happy when the day began. There was no pressure, I thought I'd eat the raw foods and decide if I liked how I was feeling each step of the way. If I liked it I would continue eating raw.
I felt so good all day, I just kept going with it!
Then around 5pm, my brain got really fuzzy, old feelings of guilt and shame from my childhood creeped in, and before I knew it I was angry at my 14 yr old. She was totally innocent in the entire thing. By 6pm I had alienated both my daughter and my husband from my harsh words.
Red Alert! Red Alert! Unreasonable angry mom is marching around!!
My husband helped me to see what was going on because I was so mad I couldn't stop to think rationally at all (thank you awesome husband). So I isolated myself until I could calm down and used my methods of mediation, prayer, mantras, and in the end it was letter writing that cleared it all up. By 7pm I had apologized and resolved things with my family, so much so, the next 2 hours we played the board game Dungeons (love this game!), and laughed and had a good time.
They weren't lying about emotions surfacing through this detox, and this experience made me realize I've got to take this seriously. My goal is to heighten my awareness to honor my feelings right away by giving them a voice, privately, away from innocent bystanders.
This became Day 1 of the detox because the random irrational anger told me that my liver has things to detox, and I want a happy liver. Day 1 it is.
Yesterday, I began an all raw foods 28 day cleanse. It took me 4 years to begin.
You see, I didn't know if I could do it. Can I really deal without my chips, protein, and chocolate?
But today when I really wanted chips, while I watched Modern Family, I grabbed grapes and celery instead. I was surprisingly satisfied, and there was no sluggish hangover.
My knew motto: Let the magic in.
Which means to me, I know my authentic self is living a very active, whole foods lifestyle that can heal my body, but it's a type of challenge to release to this fully. If I accept the challenge and eat the way my body needs to heal, it will be totally worth it, and in the end I will gain a deeper level of confidence in what I can do.
Letting the Magic in = Living a Magical Life, and I'd really like to do that.